My dog has been sick for awhile now but it just hit me yesterday that he may not be around for much longer and I feel like my life is spinning out control. I can’t stop crying (I’m crying right now) and I feel so depressed and empty on the inside. I’ve lost beloved pets before but I was too young to really understand it emotionally, even though I cried my eyes out then too. But this is the longest I’ve ever had a pet. It’s been nine years and I honestly have no idea how to live without him. He’s in so much pain and he’s gotten very clingy and affectionate and it’s killing me. I feel so selfish because I want him to live forever but I can’t stand the thought that he is in constant pain. All I want to do is be near him. Every time I leave the house I feel this crushing guilt because I left him alone and he was giving me these big sad eyes while I was walking out the door. If anything happens and we weren’t home, if I wasn’t home, I don’t think I could live with that. I lay in bed with him at night and I think, I could never sleep in this bed again if he died at night. I can’t figure out what to do and I just feel this crushing guilt because I can’t help him. We don’t have thousands of dollars for surgeries and medications. We do our best but it isn’t enough. I’ve started to buy lottery tickets for the possibility of winning money to help him. I would love it if the surgeries could allow him to live longer but mostly so he wouldn’t be in pain. His legs hurt so bad he can’t go for walks and he loves walking. He’s been reduced to a dog who can only eat and sleep, he can barely get up to go to the bathroom. I feel so lost and useless. I don’t know how to live without him, he’s the most important thing in my life.
This is my dog Cooper; he just turned nine last Sunday. He has torn ligaments in both his back legs, his front legs are starting to strain under all the pressure, he has non-cancerous tumors all over his body, and it looks like a very huge possibility that he has Cushing’s disease. He is my best friend and I don’t know how to live without him. I’m laying in bed with him right now and I’m crying over him. So I’m writing this to all my followers to please pray for my dog and his health. He is the best thing in my life, please keep him in your thoughts.